Moving on to another phase

Well here I am 4 months after surgery and not having any relief from my periods or pregnant. I will be hearing from a specialist in about a week about my options if they are similar to that of my RE I will be moving on to IVF in October. I am SCARED to death. I just don't know what I'll do if it doesn't work.

Trying new things

I know it's been a while since I last wrote...trying to keep my mind occupied.
I am 3 months post surgery and feeling good. My periods are still pretty painful, not much has changed there. I am taking multiple vitamins/herbs, acupuncture, yoga and meditation. I feel like a totally different person than who I am, or who I want to be. I don't feel like myself anymore...I want to go back to being a child and not have to worry about my health or bills. 2010-2011 have been the harderst years of my life, emotionally and physically. Hopefully there is good news coming soon.

Black Sheep

I can't help but feel like a black sheep right now. I look around and see all these PG women. I see all my friends with their kids and it just makes me feel so out of place. I'm took a break last month from ttc, and now we are back to it full force. I hope and PRAY this happens this month...this is the hardest thing I will ever go through.

Well we have decided to take a "medical break". We are still going to "do it" just no more Dr's no more appt's, just prayer and hope. AF visted me today, and I am exhausted..I can't do this another month...so we are going to take a break, travel and enjoy life and each other's company!

It's the weekend, and I feel great! I had my 2nd acupuncture tx today...and it went awesome. I'm officially in the 2ww. I will prob start testing 12 DPO just b/c I'm too impatient to wait for AF lol. My anniversary is coming up and I can't wait to get away to relax and spend quality time with the hubby! I won't have much to update on until AF either comes this month or finally decides to pack up and leave for 9 months!

I had my first Acupuncture tx today. I went very well. I felt 6 of the 12 needles so it's not totally painless, it feels like a needle going into your body, just as I figured lol. I will be seeing her twice a month. She has seen pt's with Endo and said she has had very good results. I should be O this week so I'm not going to have much to report until a couple weeks from now.

I have my first acupuncture appt tomorrow. I am soooo excited to get this started! I've heard great things about helping Endo with acupuncture...hopefully I'll be one of the success stories! DH and I have been talking about what to do for our 5 year anniversary next month. I think we are just going to take a weekend trip to get away and hopefully de-stress. I love spending time with him and I know that once we do have children we will want this alone time back: ) I'm on my last day of medication and I have had 2 really bad headaches and hot flashes too. I am ready for this week to be over. Next week is ovulation week..that's my favorite week ; )